Sean

I have come to the conclusion that I cant deal with this on my own. I think i need professional help. Its been over 3 months since you died and im still having all out break downs. I think its time to call in a grief councilor. I didnt want it to come to this, i wanted to handle this on my own. but i cant. I miss you. And i cant move on.

I think im more mad at my self for still being this fucked up about it. I know you would kick my ass for hurting this much and not being able to get past it. but im hurting and i need help.

I miss you and i love you.

I cant just push you out of my mind to go about my day to day any more. I cant not celebrate you and remember you. I need help.