Getting helped.

Group yesterday was good. Emotional but good.

Im pretty excited for Halloween tomorrow. For more then one reason.

Cleaned my house last night. Did some minor rearranging.

The only thing left to be cleaned is the thing that needs it the most..... My kitchen. I am currently avoiding it like the plague...... In fact i wouldn't be surprised if there was some plague in there. My god is it gross.

Group

I found a group therapy session for dealing with loss. Its free and is pretty close to my house. It goes from 2:30 - 4pm. so it wont interfere with work. So I really have no excusses for not going. lets see how this works out. Maybe I can regain normal functioning human statis once again.

Sean

I have come to the conclusion that I cant deal with this on my own. I think i need professional help. Its been over 3 months since you died and im still having all out break downs. I think its time to call in a grief councilor. I didnt want it to come to this, i wanted to handle this on my own. but i cant. I miss you. And i cant move on.

I think im more mad at my self for still being this fucked up about it. I know you would kick my ass for hurting this much and not being able to get past it. but im hurting and i need help.

I miss you and i love you.

I cant just push you out of my mind to go about my day to day any more. I cant not celebrate you and remember you. I need help.

Shirt.woot.com

Aw man! I believe i missed this rad rad shirt!

Motovation

Sigh... Why is it that only on the days i want to be up and mobile at a reasionable hour end up being the ones i fail miseriably on and sleep in way to late. Now im kinda achey and over slept and ..... sigh!

50 first Dates

Im pretty much in love with this movie. I can (and do) watch it over and over again.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ErjP5xMTc8I

I roll 20's

I went to the Comic Shop yesterday and bought my self a set of shiny new polyhedral dice for playing DnD.

So i get home, open the box and dump them all on to the table...... and roll a 20.


If that isnt a good omen I dont know what is.

October

Wow. I am already starting to feel the effects of a Vancouver winter. Its been raining for a week now. And im already wanting it to stop.

What happened to the lovely city that I had fallen in love with right off the bat.

Also, whats happened to my life?

I used to do things. I used to have fun. I used to see friends. Now that i live down town and im not in school any more, i have become a hermit. I havent seen my friends from school in ages. I knew it would happen though. They are all caught up in there classes and im not part of the cool club any more.

Oh well... sigh....


Bitch bitch bitch.... whine whine whine right.